Kissing you....imagination

I can imagine us having this unbreakable desire for one another.
I can feel the tension between us every time we're near each other.
I know what that first night was like when I started kissing you......

It started something like I came over with whatever your heart desired.
I waltzed in with my sexy lace black high heels.  Yeah I know kinda typical
but I know this night is sexy so what else can you expect.

As you set down on the couch I climbed on top of you and there I started kissing you.
That kiss was the most explosive feeling I ever felt in my entire life.  Good Lord (smh)
It was the slowest most sensual kiss and it was over so fast and when my eyes opened and
you looked so piercingly into my eyes (babe *exaggerated*) lol and then again the kissing
started.  Damn!!!

And then I could feel you growing between my legs and being that I had those Victoria Secrets
on I could feel you touching my lips and not with your hands. I began to ride you slowly while you began to suck on my neck.  As your tongue and lips traced my chin and then neck...The hotter
my body got.  I wanted you more and more the later the day got.

I slowly got from off top of you and took you by the hand and led it to the bedroom. As we walked to the room you start pulling off the shirt.  And that body was everything I could ever think of.  But as you walked I looked back and seen everything that was awaiting me.  Yes! I started to get excited and my mouth started getting very wet.  You grabbed my arm as we entered the threshold and pulled me
closer to you and started biting on my neck.  You know I love this shit.  I wanted to submit to you
right then.

I stopped you and looked in your eyes kissed those thick juicy chocolate lips of yours then traced
my kisses down your body.  Using my tongue when I could, attempting to make you feel
better than you ever have in your lifetime.  Near us this beautiful bed but the floor is overpowering
the feelings of comfort.  On my knees and I submit.

Devouring your manhood down my throat.  I heard the best moan I have ever heard.  I unwrapped my lips quickly and placed you in my hands.   Now massaging your manhood I looked up at you.  I asked you are you OK  and then you grabbed the back of my neck drawing me closer to you.  First I
spit to get it nice and wet making it easier to fit all 9 inches down my throat.  I wanted to love you with my mouth.

The back and forth motions...the spitting and slurping...the tonguing and deep throating.
Your eyes rolling your hand getting tighter around my hair pulling on it cause it feels so go.
The harder and harder you got I knew you wanted to have me.  So you then stopped me.  Picked me
up off my knees and slowly walked me to the bed.  You laid me down so gently.  You made me
feel so wanted.  You looked down at me while over top of me and kissed me.

Slowly kissing down my neck down to my breast.  You pulled my bra down to lick on my nipple and nipple ring.  Then moving to the next.  Having you between my legs was all I could ever ask for.  Everything else was only up to you.  You touched my body to softly and then placed your fingers
on my *yours*.  Every part of my body was *yours*.  Like I did for you....You submitted to me.

Kissing down my stomach and down to my thighs....you liked to tease me.  You stood before me like a dark knight ready to approach, and slid me closer to you.  As you got down on your knees in front of me...ripping my panties off...You placed my legs on your shoulders.  Going in...you went in with determination and I loved it.  Your tongue felt so warm and there you tasted my body...all of it.

In and out your tongue went....gently sucking on my clitoris, the moans filled the air.  That bedroom
was no longer existing.  I  still felt like I was all yours.  You could do anything you wanted to do right then.  You dominated my body and I am a willing participant.

You killed my pussy without even placed *yours* inside *mine*.  You placed my hand on your head...wanting me to pull you closer...But I couldn't make you do what you were already doing.  So you decided for a change of view.  You slid your tongue from inside me laid on the bed and said, "come sit on daddy's face baby!"  I happily obliged.  Still having had those heels on, I quickly took them off.

I slowly placed my lips on your lips and you kissed me so sweetly.  Reaching for my breast, I took my lace black bra off for you daddy and then you placed your strong soft warm hands on my breast, squeezing and massaging me, making your queen feel just amazing.

You placed your hands on my waist moving my body back and forth all over your face.  That tongue was nothing to mess with and I never would have thought.(smh)

You finally moved me off of you bending me over so quick.  You arched my back, grabbed my hair and asked, "are you ready for me?''  I couldn't say I wasn't because you tasted so good of course I had to know how you felt.  So I spoke, "yes!" so exhausted like.

So you laughed, stroked it for a sec and slapped my ass with your dick letting me know...here it comes.  As you slipped the tip in, I flinch.  And you just kinda giggled because that arch you once had turned into a hunch.

With those strong magical hands, you placed one hand on the arch of my back and the other you used to grab the back of my neck.  Slowly sliding into me.  I was so wet so it wasn't difficult but rather pleasing for you.  You were half way in when you spoke, "you are so tight and sweet."  Making my body quiver...I couldn't say anything so I just said, mm-hmm.

Deep in it you were moaning like my pussy was the best thing you ever felt.  It was simultaneous then love in the air that is.  My face deep down in the pillows now biting the pillows because you are just so big the pressure is incredible.  You grab my hair pulling me up straight.  You fucking me from behind now grabbing my throat biting my earlobe...licking my neck.  You know all I could ever want is you. Beating it up I gave up.

So you pushed me down flipped me over kissed my lower lips and then spit on your dick.  Before sticking it in, you smack my lips a few times with the tip.  Spreading my legs wide apart you slid into me.  The moans again filled the room.

Never asking me if I was done or if I cared for more...you fucking me and I know you wanted to bust.  I could feel the veins popping out more and more.  It began to feel a little uncomfortable but for you I knew it meant more than anything.  You spit on my pussy getting it wetter and your moans did indeed turn me on...you placed your hands around my throat real tight slamming yourself inside of me.  Close to blacking out I just gave in.

The closer you got to cumming you never asked me where I wanted it but I was just fine with that...Because I'm here for you baby.

Of course I came awhile back so I been stopped worrying about me.

I began to feel something warm inside of me.  and the
sound of finally releasing filled my right ear.

It was over and Then I awoke to only
that being my imagination.

...almost believed in love again

This is for you babe.

We met in January and all we were supposed to do that night was Netflix and cuddle.  But it was more like pick a movie from the collection and cuddle lol.  The later it got that night the more touchy you became.  You rubbing on my breast and thighs and stomach made me extremely hot for you.  But I didn't want to fuck you because I just didn't want to take it that far.

We did the hanging out thing again and the same rubbing and touching occurred the later it got.  You were so nonchalant when I texted you the same night and told you how much you made me consistently want you.  You reminded me that there was no rush but the next time we saw each other, we fucked lol. Funny how things work out.

When I got pregnant in February and asked you did you want to hear something funny, you listened and the first thing you said was, well I can only have boys.  I laughed and texted back, that you weren't the one that got me pregnant so no worries.  I did mention that I wasn't keeping it but I guess while I was pregnant you wanted to take complete advantage of what you had.  That night we fucked, you told me how bad you wanted to cum inside of me.  You asked me and I said no.  I know you were a little upset because so was I.

The reason for this blog as well as its significance to me.  You almost made me believe in love again.
Although the kisses we eventually gave each other didn't feel like anything for me.  Your company alone made my life a whole lot better.  You treated me with so much respect and want that over the course of time I really began to confess my love for and about you.  You knew exactly what to do even on the worse days.  You brought so much light to my life.

This is pretty much an apology letter that you will never see.  Once I began to feel these feelings I knew for a fact you didn't feel the same and I began to separate myself from you.  I know you could feel it.  From the flowers you bought to me to the outings to the sex and your sexy as moans(oooooooo) to the giving the keys to your apartment.  I felt like you were everything I ever needed after so long of not knowing.  You felt right and I just knew it wouldn't last.  I'm sorry for everything I ever I did or didn't do or said or didn't say.  But you have to own up too. 

I can't wait to find my Mr. Wonderful!!!!

R.I.P to past relations

June-July we ended

The "D"

I'm making this Title like a play on words(a pun if you will) lol because I honestly forgot this dudes name, I just remember it started with a D lol and I could be wrong but not like it matters.

Even though he did cross my mind on this day.  And the significance is because of his lips.  I somehow ran across his IG maybe or something a while back.  And this guy was extremely handsome.  So I searched for this Facebook page(when I did have one) and hit him up.  I was nervous because I automatically knew he wouldn't write me back.  Like I'm mediocre as hell and he was just so fine.  We wrote each other back and forth and I think my initial message was: your lips are amazing.  Or something along those lines.

Long story short he said I should taste them and I agreed.  He gave me his number and we began texting.  He might have been the same day or maybe the next but I eventually gave him my address and he came over. When I met him outside it was a nice night and he was leaning up against his car.  We had general conversations and I swore up and down he was a tad tipsy lol but let him tell it...he wasn't.  Anyhow after conversing of course it was getting late and I was tired and began for the house ended it with a goodnight.  He said, "so I can't get a hug at least?" and I laughed and was like, "I guess." I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek even though those thick juicy lips were definitely on my mind.  He was tall, dark and gorgeous and the way he stood over me was just consuming.  He grabbed me and went in for the kill.  When our lips connected it was just that magic I just always dreamed of, I knew I wanted to fuck him right then.  It was just a connection I just didn't feel in a long time, I felt wanted possibly even needed.  But it won't that deep lol.

That same night he admitted that kiss did something to him as well.  Like it was meant for our lips to be together.  He wanted to fuck me right then as well.  As time went on we planned and planned to eventually get together and just get it done.  But every time he played me out.  I grew to not care anymore but still wanted to know what the "D" was like because when he sent me the Dick Pic I was like, "yes lawd (in my drake voice)" lol.

Long story short with this, He finally made time for me one night/morning.  He left me hanging that night but showed up in the morning.  I guess he had duty or something maybe he showed up tired as hell.  You know when I look back on this, I wish it would've happened on better terms lol.  He fell asleep on the couch while I got ready for the day.  After I had my clothes on ready to go he eventually woke up and told me to sit on his lap.  He apologized for leaving me hanging but I honestly didn't care.  I don't know exactly how we ended up on the bed but that's where we were when he somehow started between my legs.  Licking my pussy...yeah it was nice but I wanted his dick in my mouth.  so I pushed him off.  He started up towards my face and put his dick in my mouth.  Fucking my mouth and throat so good.  He tasted amazing just like his lips did the first time.  He eventually fucked me and the way he did it made me feel like a fucking object...a slut bucket if you will smh.  Yeah that was the one and only time I slept with this man.  Like his dick was nice but I guess that connection just wasn't what it was.

All well that ends well

XOXO

Mom...not to be!!!

The reason I named it this way is because I am currently no longer pregnant.


It all started February 8th.  I had drill that weekend and got a hotel room to technically be alone but just to be closer to my unit as well.  I hate that drive so early in the morning.  Saturday night I kik ole dude to come over and just sleep with me.  When I say sleep that's exactly what I meant.  He asked if I meant fucked but I said, "I didn't mean it that way but if it happened oh well lol."  He eventually came over that night and him laying next to me didn't mean a thing I just hate sleeping alone.  Now this guy that I'm talking about, I've written about him before on my blog.  So for us to have sex this night it felt just as good as it did before maybe better lol.  I'm not going to get into any details of that night because it's not pertinent.

February 9th, the next morning.  I think I didn't have to report until 7 or whatever the case may be.  I started to rub up against him and kiss his lips and so on.  He eventually woke up and got the picture.  Before I had to go he made me feel so amazing right but the last position landed me in a lot of shyt.  I was on top of him, riding him.  Yessss...mistake.  He told me, "I'm about to cum!"  and I heard him but I didn't think anything of it because before I was told I couldn't get pregnant.  So this didn't phase me.  But he came inside of me while I was on top of him.  His eyes got wide like shock, nerviness, and disappointment maybe?  So I got off went to the bathroom to clean off and push out his cum.  It never came out but I still didn't think about it.

Moving forward 2 to 3 weeks.  I was supposed to get my period about the ending of the month.  I was counting it down.  I started feeling cramps and my boobs were starting to hurt so I was excited about it, thinking like if I get my period I know I'm not pregnant.  So the 25th came and I said OK well I got at least one more day and if I don't get it (smh).  I bought a pregnancy test that night.  The morning of the 26th came and no period.  I opened up the pregnancy test and used it.  A minute later and the results where "you are pregnant."  I was shocked, not sure if I was shocked(happy) or (sad).  Maybe a little of both.

That morning I kik him, no response.  So then I texted him basically saying, "when you get the time we need to talk."  I wanted to see him face to face but I'm guessing between the last time we saw each other and the time I found out, nothing has been going his way.  He eventually responded back and I think he knew exactly what I wanted to talk about.  I told him and let him know I wasn't going to keep it so no worries.  He pretty much asked me did I set him up blah blah blah...hilarious.  Eventually, he wanted to know why I wasn't going to keep it. (We are not ready and I don't even like you like that).

Anyhow  March 21st.  I ended up getting an abortion.  Almost 2months pregnant.  It really hurt my feelings to have to do this.  But throughout the whole time, not once did he willingly check up on me or anything.  I stopped worrying about him a while ago.  It hurt because I had to have my baby literally yanked and sucked out of me.  I'm still upset because it could've been my little girl that I want so bad.  Well I let him know that everything was over and done with and now it's like he wants to talk to me.  I don't care to see him though.  SMH!  My due date would've been November 7th.

R.I.P.

my child

Mommy is sorry!!!

I wouldn't let go....

Until he kissed me.

I took a while to meet you.  Those Internet dating sites don't really do any justice so I was scared.  I was going by your profile and you seemed like someone I wanted to get to know.  I finally took it for what it was and agreed to meet you and "hang out".  I told you before you came that I didn't want to see you because I was horny and figured it would be a bad idea to come see but you insisted that you wouldn't do anything and we would just watch some movies.

I wanted to just fuck you actually and go about my business so for you to say we would just watch movies lol I knew we really wouldn't.  Once you came to pick me up I thought you were as adorable as your profile made you out to be.  But I learned by just looking at your phone that something about your profile was just a lie.  We talked on the ride back to your place.  All cool or whatever the case may be.  You let me know ahead of time that you were staying with your homeboy or whatever but the shock was that your homeboy had his girl and child just all up over the place lol I didn't know how to act.  Before we started to watch the movie I caught a glimpse of your screen and I seen a child and started to shake my head...I did actually hope it was like your nephew or something but when I said that his homebody child was cute he made the statement that his kid don't look better than your son.(smh)

As we laid there watching movie 43 lol (crazy movie) you wanted me to get closer to you but I really didn't want to.  But he has long arms so it didn't matter.  I didn't get closer to him but he reached down to my ass grabbing my ass and fingering my pussy.  It didn't really feel like anything but it was kinda wet I guess lol because you asked me, "what's that noise?"lol He started to tell me that he was  hungry but I already knew he was hungry because he's stomach was growling mad loud lol.  But he asked if I could feed him lol I didn't understand until he stood up and asked if I could make him full lol smh

He eventually got down on his knees pulled my sweats down and stuck his tongue deep inside of me and began to eat me he felt nice.  I did moan a little but I did tried to keep it in.  He wanted to know what my pussy felt like but I didn't want to let go.  I try to keep my legs tight but he was just whispering, "relax!" but I couldn't.  As much as I wanted to have sex I didn't want to do it with him.  He had an amazing body and I was shocked that his dick was big smh I hate that lol. Anyways I had my knees tight and tucked and he was trying to break through but I wouldn't let go until he leaned down and kissed me.  His thick lips all over mines made me feel so wanted.  I think I started to feel some way about him.  See him in a whole different light.  He felt amazing just after that one kiss.  That was all I ever needed.  I rode on him but it hurt because of his size.  During sex he asked me would I be his and I wanted to say yes.  I definitely wouldn't mind us being more than what we started out to be.

Long story short...as he took me home he let some information about him go and I wasn't sure of the information giving.  I wasn't comfortable and I penalized him for it because honestly hearing that all at once I just wasn't ready.  I really would like another try but I doubt it because I did avoid him twice so far...I apologize and that wasn't fair to you!!!

That night

You asked me to stay With you I told you I had drill in the morning and I got there so late I definitely didn't get any sleep.

This night reminded me of the night me and ol' dude use to have.   So finally making it there all you wanted to do was cuddle and talk but I just wanted to cuddle and fall asleep.  We watched a few movies laughed and dosed off.  You woke up and shook me if I'm correct telling me to talk to you.   You knew I was tired and had drill and insisted on keeping me awake lol. You were telling me how you felt and about your family and son and bad encounters with females and blah blah blah.

I don't remember how we began to talk about sex but question that lead to this story was: do you prefer short and fat or long and skinny.   Halfway sleep having this conversation, I had to think hard about it and said I would rather have short and fat... You laugh and as soon as that decision was made you said oh OK. You started asking me about spots and where mines were and touching me. You started licking me and kissing my body and when you halfway sleep anything would feel good... You started taking off my clothes... Long story short.... You placed your penis in my pussy and when I felt it I was in shock because it really was fat.... Can't lie your dick felt amazing even though it was short... You had my pussy sore that night lol.

Afterward I fell asleep and so did you....it was getting closer and closer to wake up and you woke up before me.  My Alarm wasn't the alarm on my phone but you force your dick inside of my tight sore pussy.  It's nothing better than that kinda sex.  You made me feel amazing that night.   It sucks it ended the way it did but I guess everything for a reason right.   I won't mind having that night again with you though;-)